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Saturday, May 28, 2011

expect the unexpected

lesson of the day...never rely on others even tho you know its their responsibilities to do those stuff for you...selfish people remains selfish...being one just because you're mad at them will make you just like them...no matter how good they are..with those attitude...you're definly better...

honestly...i m damn mad...

and i should train myself not to cry or blow off when i m super mad...

*self motivation
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Monday, May 16, 2011

perasaan hujung sem

bila setiap hujung sem..ni la perasaan yg datang..
heart beat definly tak sekata...kalau jantung boley lompat keluar dari tempat dia..mmg dia dah lompat keluar...

self esteem definly down...down yg smpai ke teras bumi wa cakap lu...time ni tak peduli dah panel ckp design aku gempak pon aku dah tak peduli slagi blom keluar result...

muka stress aku sukar disorok2 dah..walaupon aku senyum..mmg fake abes senyum itu sbb aku pon rase susah nak mhasilkan senyum tuh...

marah aku tme ni ialah berdiam diri...marah yg paling bahaya dlm diri aku sendiri...biarlah aku membebel 44 karung pon..lagi bagus....bila marah diam ni...erk...aku pon takut ngn diri sendiri...

aku bukan lagi kerek..aku lebih kepada sarcastic.. my my...

aku tak peduli dah sape yg buat lawak...kalo aku rase taknak gelak...reaksi menyampah akan ditunjukkan serta merta...walaupon lecturer yg aku rase cute cuba membuat perangai cute...mmg aku tak nmpak cute...mmg rase nak bagi penampor je...

TAPI KENAPA HUJUNG SEM JE??

hujung sem je rr...
sbb time ni la aku plg serabut....
time ni aku dok pikir nape org tu boley score..sama je ngn aku punya keje...
time ni aku dok buat spekulasi sendiri..nape agaknye lecturer tu cm tak gemor design aku...ke dia tak suka aku?? T_T
time ni la aku paling pokai...lepas tu byk pulak duit nak pakai nk buat design ni...
time ni la semua assignment dah nak due...rupanya satu pon aku tak buat lg...T_T
time ni la buku yg ko nak semua tak available kat library
time ni la badan dah macam nak demam la..selsema la...hape la..ngantuk la...
time ni semua org pon tersumbat..APE KORANG INGAT KORANG JE BOLEH TERSUMBAT?
time ni la aku nyesal nape la aku tak kawen awal? (kau nak kawen ngn sape??)
time ni la aku dok tanya diri sendiri nape aku give up engineering and study archi?
time ni la aku sedar...gila takde life...asyik design..design..design...terer nye idak juga!!
time ni kalo bukak fb..twitter...blog..tgk kawan2 yg dah keje..kawen...rase nak nanges 'kegembiraan'...ape lg yg kau blaja ni kunang??org dah amik test nak jadi angkasawan kot...
time ni la aku dok merepek pikir takde sape ke nak kawen ngn aku n sara aku so aku takyah blaja dah...(u wish kunang!!)
time ni memang aku terbayang2 kat otak aku video matluthfi yg psl merungut tuh...owh..awl lagi perjalanan tu dik oi...
time ni la paling senang nak tgk aku jadi PLASTIK!! tapi mjadi plastik memerlukan mood... tp bila terpaksa...plastikkan aje...isk isk...
and time ni..procrastinate is the most preferable thing to do...

haish!!! TAK SEDAR2 LAGI KAU KUNANG?


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Saturday, May 14, 2011

hurmm..thats not cool...

last night was nightmare...its cold to death...i cant even get myself sleep nor get myself out from bed due to the extreme weather...

so...this entry should be yesterday's entry...since blogspot had some problem that need to be fixed yesterday.. all bloggers couldnt write any entry yesterday...

so lets talk...!!!

something had happened yesterday...something that really get on my nerves...

so, as usual, i always known as the 'bad guy'...loudest person ever...the one who dont give a damn about anything..the one who dont know bout anything...or maybe secretly pretending knowing nothing...u name it..yang pasti..mmg yg tak baik la...

like i care what people think about me...i never change...my attitude might change a bit...but the real me never change....

i can be considered as talkative...i talk about everything...but always in general...always doesnt mean never...

i dont really into personal life stuff unless being told or ask...i gave advise only when necessary...and always tried my best to look at the positive quality in everyone...

okay..this is actually what happened...
and i wrote this for the sake of reminding myself and everyone who read this...never do such thing...

i m not born genius..alhamdulillah after few wrong turns...i usually made it...

i currently have this problem with this person who i knew said bad things behind my back... this person said stuff about me with my close friend...so its like...

WTH???

i dont feel like saying bad things about others is necessary especially when you are actually introducing new people in town...honestly...i m shocked to know about what this person said about me...because i never thought this person can be that harsh...

and...showing off is definly is not necessary...u dont have to show off about your stuff...ur family...ur 'clever-ness',(bijak sangat ke kau??)and etc...showing off is definly annoying....

ermm...enough of showing off...the other thing that i cant stand about this person...

he/she never know how to be humble...

okay..mesti korg kata dah show off tu harusla tak humble kan??

okay la...this person LOVES to look down towards others...as in he/she is the most perfect guy/girl in the world...and always kept saying stuff like 'untung rr awk ade senior..kalau tak mmg tak survive la awk'

and kept saying that to others as well about me not going to survive w/out him/her....

EXCUSE ME???
ko buatkan asssigment aku ke??
i havent ask a question regarding to study issues to this person knowing that i would feel annoyed to listen all of the crap he/she gonna say.

other thing that annoyed me..

when you helped people...help them with all your heart..
yes i know...its hard to be definite ikhlas...but try...never brag about 'good things' u did...kecik je kot pertolongannya...annoying ok dengar kau asyik keco ko tolong org tu tolong org ni...padahal...bila kaji balik...tak membantu lgsung pon 'pertolongan' kau...

hmm...what else...??plz stop being an attention seeker... tak tahan weyh...seriously tak boley blah....

oke..dah2...aku yg annoyed ngn diri sendiri skrg sbb asyik annoyed ngn org lain...

peringatan kita bersama....

-tak perlu ckp pasal org...tak berpekdah pon...tambah2 ckp buruk psl org
-tak perlu jatuhkan org...tak naikkan kite pon
-bila menolong bior ikhlas...kalo tak...tak payah tolong trus lg bagus
-tak perlu jadi attention seeker...serious tak perlu...nmpk beno kurg kasih syg...hahahaha.....

oke...thats all for now....jgn nak mandai2 create propaganda with what i've wrote.... it just a self reminder...so that i wont be as bad as them...



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stress

okay...please please please pray for me...i badly need a good grade and marks...the biggest mistake I've made...cepat sgt rase selesa ngn previous result...ko igt ko genius kunang??

HELL NO!!!


mana ada kejayaan yang dtg bergolek...

APA LAGI?? KEJAR ARRR!!!

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Wednesday, May 11, 2011

autumn is almost end

hello readers...(ayat bajet artis..hahaha..)im still here in launceston...and as what i've wrote as my main title...the autumn is almost end..and there'll come cruel mr.winter....

the weather lately made me feel like really want to go back to Malaysia...yes other than all the stressful stuff that happened at school...weather is the second reason why i miss Malaysia so much...

lets talk about weather...so...i've been bragging about weather all this while...the fact that i m at the coldest part of Australia really make me feel upset...this past few days..the weather..hmm....i dont know how can i make others understand...yes...i may not be at the coldest place on earth...but..the fact that im from hot and humid country and im at the coldest part  of Australia made me feel like one now...

for these past few days...looking at the sun set had been like a nightmare/tragedy...evening is not really an evening...5 o'clock is like 730pm...and 9pm is like 12am??? i dont know if im the only one who felt this way...but to stay awake until 12..i have to gather all the strength in me to not to fall asleep... the weather had been really 'cruel' that i couldnt make myself out from the blanket or duvet or whatever you called it each time i already in it...so each time i need to  stay up...i have to 'bungkus' myself like seriously 'bungkus'...i shivered all night sometimes...sitting next to the heater didnt stop me from shivering like hell...i m fortunate that all my work need to be done on computer...because my hand never follow my brain's instruction at night...hahahha...when i need to sketch...i sketch like a drunk woman...when i have to write...i wrote like toddlers...so..usually...when i need to do things manually...i prefer to wait until the sun come out again...when the temperature is no more below zero...i feel upset to see my friend's status when they complained bout how hot is Malaysia...because this coldness..is no more bearable at night....but still...im am grateful n thankful to be here...at least now i know how to appreciate the warm breeze back in Malaysia...hahahha....

ok...enough about weather..

logically...i shouldn't be blogging at this very moment...i should've have my ass work right now....but i've promised myself not to be too harsh to my own body....after few hectic days...my body really need  rest..today's rest is important because after this, i will be facing major submissions...SUBMISSIONS...and i'll working like hell for few weeks...i hope i'll do well in professional studies...im hoping for another distinction for design studio...and at least a credit for building technology(pray for me for this one...i have this lecturer that never easy to deal with)...

other than that...i m super excited to spent my holiday in Malaysia...to eat all the foods i've been craving for so long...huuuu...Malaysia memang syurga makanan..hehhee....

and im happy that i dont have to face the extreme weather during winter...i cant imagine how bad the weather can be during winter kalau autumn pon dah below zero....and im happy too that i can attend all the majlis kahwin...uuuu...cant wait to meet everyone...

so...enough of me...for the time being...no brilliant posting will be on this wall...its all definly about all my complaint about the world...

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Tuesday, May 3, 2011

you're not cool..not even close...

so...yesterday...i've submitted my task 2 for DS7(design studio)...my groupmate and i got a quite good result for task 1...so we are actually hoping for a better result this time...although i know its IMPOSSIBBLE considering that other student did such a GREAT job...rasa nak jalan kaki balik malaysia ok!! tp ok la...lulus pon happy sudah!!!

the title for this entry is just something like a status on fb...i dont feel right writing it on fb because people, friends, and family will make a random speculation about it...so i wrote it here as i know only certain people read this blog...

its been like 4 months im here in launceston....and alhamdulillah...everything went well...i've made lots of friends...i've learn really hard to fix my monthly budget..phew..(not that hard...but im trying hard to have myself disciplined when it comes about money)...have learned a lot... think outside the box...i have several time jump outside the box...(i've  been sitting in the box all this while afraid that i might get lost)...got a suprisingly good result for past task...hopefully i'll do better next time...insyaAllah....pray for me ya!!

i miss foods in Malaysia...cant wait to get back and EAT!! nak makan nasik lemak best...nak makan roti canai banjir...nak minum air kelapa muda...nak makan capati...nak makan telinga keling...nak makan cempedak goreng...nak makan steamboat....nak makan steak kg.baru...nak makan char kuey teow...waaa...nak makan...nak makan....

other than that...congrats to yana...ko dah jadi bini orang....bila aku boley jadi aunty ni??? huahuahua... selamat pengantin baru....semoga kekal bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat...nnt ko siasat btol2 ngn abg zul...skali tgk kite mmg ade bau2 bacang..huhuhu....

ok..thats all for now...i have not much to say, write nor complain about my life at this moment...other than the awful weather...everything went just fine and well...

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