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Friday, September 16, 2011

i am living another typical archy life

i am facing a really hard time now...theres 5 weeks to go..and im all lost...i hate it when i did good at the beginning and end up like a loser towards the end...

to be honest...i am grateful despite all the craziness that happened lately...it make me feel more ambitious in certain way..and the will to strive for the best had gone to 200% i must say...

to be here...where you are the 'alien' of the place..never been easy...its harder when you are muslim and a woman..people look at you differently...people understand you differently...and sometimes they see you like you're the cause of a disease...it is emotionally challenging especially when you feel like people chose to be racist rather than professional...well...its not what we feel...its what we realize...and as usual, they'll deny it....
okay..enough about people..

let's talk about me!

this week had been a disaster....like seriously..things dont always happen as you want it...when you think you are actually in the right track..and all the responses you receive from the lecturers were positive...you'll start to feel more at ease...and got super-shock with the result for the work you've done...thats what happen to me...i receive a very good responses indeed..i did super well at the beginning..and today..to receive a lower result than before and lower than i hope it to be had somehow made me feel down...this is when you are emotionally tested...you have to put away all the negative thought immediately and move forward...when tense is your motivator...you can do something that beyond your ability...so...with a lot of effort...doa..and tawakal...i really hope i could do better...be the best....and make people who love me proud...

i'll try my best to beat my emotion when difficulties come...and rationally re-strategizing the next step...

work hard..think smart..live life...and believe in Allah as he would never fails to love you... 

**when you are just average..there are still hundred reasons to fail you...so be the best..make failure seems impossible....(lebih kurg gitu la kata2 Pn.Nakiah kat i dulu...)

enjoy the video...this is what i feel...what i've experience..and what i would say out loud if i am given the chance to say it...yes..i am living another typical archi student life...!!






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