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Tuesday, December 1, 2009

yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery...and today is a gift...that is why its called present

olla...i have almost nothing interesting to say...i just got back from sri lanka 2 days ago..a blast trip...travel to third world country wasnt that bad...but surprisingly all the things sold there can be consedered as expensive...even more expensive compare to Malaysia...to some people who i ignored when they asked me about the trip...i m so sorry...takde mood beb...i usually had no idea of writing...but i always write when i feel miserable..now i m not really in a mood of doing anything...so after a hectic semester that i had face...i went to this so called study trip to sri lanka...the trip???wasnt so good...and not so bad....comme ci comme ├ža....we went to so many place that you only see in the books..and never thought of going...at first i was excited..but when theres so much to see...i got bored, sick and tired....

then here i am in malaysia again...again thinking about my plan and making all the strategy so i'll fit in the place..and doubting in every single thing ive done..*sigh*

then i found out something that i wish i dont know and wish that we never knew each other...takpe2..tahun depan la kite jumpe and settle...ok??lagipon i m not sure how i should feel pon...so far...gua steady lagi rr...

then...when i thought that i am the only one who want to get out from all of this mess...rupanya...ada lagi org lain yang feel the same way...ok...i m happy because u re happy for me...but dont you think you should follow your heart too dear???

so..aku nak tules banyak pasal sri lanka pon...tak byk gamba sgt kat aku..wait till i collect all the pics from everyone then i'll write again bout it ok...



p/s : "if you don't have the intentions to be with him then stop showering him with promises, if your love belongs to someone else,don't give him hope.girl like you make it hard for girl like me"



Saturday, October 24, 2009

you cant...or you dont want???

this is always become a question that lingered in my mind...ever heard of "hendak seribu daya tak nak seribu dalih?"in my very own opinion....it is just so true...the quote always prove that in order to do something, u have to put all your heart on it...then no matter how hard...how impossible...you gonna make it....

after these 23 years of living...then i realize that i've been living a lucky life...honestly speaking... i never do things seriously...never think things seriously...and never take anything seriously...sometimes i take for granted all the good things that happened to me...most of the time i forgot to appreciate good things that happen to me...and always forget to thank everyone around me for all the goods they've did to me...

i screwed up...i succeed...

but still i live my life to the fullest...experience every moment whether it is sad or happy... try to fix everything that went wrong....try to love all people around me...try to forgive and forget... try to be more patient in anything i do...still looking forward on what actually i really good at...
i've learned that i m fragile but so hard hearted...had the most steady,sturdy and toughest face in the worst situation...so daring to do anything when i got piss...and really bad in saying no when ppl ask me to do something...tsk tsk tsk...
so..love yourself...love people around you...treat people fairly...live your live to the fullest...always be thankful...there's no such things as 'my life is so empty'...(ok peeps..you know who you are...hahaha)when you are in the worse situation..remember...theres always ppl who had been in a worst situation than you are now...
so..here...i wanna thank all the people who had lent me their shoulder to cry on...who had been accompanying me when i needed someone to be with me...to listen to all the craps i said...to be patient with all the stupid stuffs i've done...to care about what happened...and to share and give advices...thanks...thanks...thanks....only HE knows how much i appreciate em...
and i know i've been to loud lately...im kinda sorry...to the person i've hurted...im just doing what other people will do if they're in my place...
so...i know some of you peeps wont undersand this blogs...and wont get it clear...but somehow...i know the people who are involve will understand...

time will do...dont worry...
let us all try our best and stop talking craps...
let us all live our life to the fullest...
me is still me...
and wont never change to be someone else...

no matter how i'll look...i will still be me...
you love me and i'll love you..

p.e.a.c.e

p/s : sorry guys...the blogs for now is all about me...i'll share something interesting for you to read when i have the idea...till now...its all craps that i can give you...hahha...btw...i just spoke my mind...hahah...

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

when 'tense' is your motivator

when you feel stress then you'll feel like doing something or can i just say...something really bad so then you can satisfied yourself and let all things just like go away for a while???...it happened to everybody in this world and so do i... some people tend to do things that will effects them in a negative way...and some successfully overcome the feelings very well by doing something that make them a better person... i've been in both shoes..and i have to admit that to fall into the 'bad' shoe was so much easier that falling into a better shoe...and i really thanked GOD when he guided me to a better shoe so i don't do bad things that will make my life more miserable in the future...

i ve been thru quite a hectic life lately....not a joyful one...a busy full with scare architecture student life..a so low esteem character that i have to face all alone by myself...and a very stressful life that i think i can no more afford to face any more...

then theres one day where i nearly do something bad...then one of my friend called me and tell me something...that something is not more that just her problem that she thinks she cant handle anymore...so i listen...what really shocked me was that we are definitely is a very same shoe...we both hate the life that we goin thru right now...and i m kinda always positive when people ask me for help or advice...i said to her that we are actually was in the same shoe...but we have to keep it all cool first...we have to calm down and dont make any decision yet...the strategy is actually not to regret after making a bad decision while you are in depressed...so at the same time..im kinda advice myself when i advice her...im not the one who are so into listening to people's opinion or advice...so i dont care what the people around me have to say about my decision...but when i advice others...especially this one...then i realise...that i m actually advicing myself and getting stronger...although i still depressed with the situation...but then i know i wont do stupid things..(at this very moment at least...you know what i mean....)

so..what im trying to say here...that yourself is the best advisor ever...no one can stop you if you dont want or want to do something right???i know it moght sound so easy for me to say things like this...but...believe me...i've been in the worse situation and people just can't tell....until it got really worst...i just realize this actually...i've heard about it but never go thru it...then now i've experienced once...when theres a person who had been in the same shoe like me...and you kinda like dont want to let the person down...and you try ur best to be the best listener ever...then without you realizing it...you are actually like talking to yourself...i feel so..something like magic in me...when people felt depressed and they feel lots better when they met you...its kinda like a reward to me...(maybe i should be a counselor then..hahaha)

i've been thinking to do new things in my life...to try all the things that i've wish to try before...and to be more positive in every aspect...and bla...bla...bla....you know...its kinda weird...but believe me..it really took away all the stress in me...i dont know about you..

so...this blog is so all about me...what i want to share with you guys is just that...to be positive aint easy...but you still can be one if you want to...i knew it is sometimes annoying to listen to others probs...(actually its because you know that its like you know they'll never listen to what you say to em)but its good...because then you learn more about life..and without realizing it you had been the best 'teacher' or can i say (motivator) to yourself...

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

when i feel that failing is my only option..

wont say more bout it...but that is what im thinking now...silly...!!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

how grandmas see the remote


Thursday, September 24, 2009

happy eid...

hello everyone...i hope its not too late for me to wish everybody happy eid...sorry i didnt have the chance to wish on time since i m at my kampung and busy preparing and 'raya' ing...hehehe...stay healthy and be wealthy by collecting 'duit raya'..hehehhe...to those who still had the comitment on design...dont forget designing during raya tho i myself quite forgetting it and enjoying my raya to the fullest..hahah..so..as what we all did during eid...i would like to take this opportunity to ask for forgiveness from everybody for all my mistakes...for the things i ve done wrong..plz forgive me...have a blessed and blissful eid yah..!!! muahh!!!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

l.i.v.e

to be or not to be.. i am wondering how can people simply neglecting all things around em... i might not be the best people to say this..but just feel like saying it...never neglect things that happened around you....i kept reminiscing about the good old days...those days that i've been missing a lot...primary school...high school...diploma years...kliuc years...i miss the moment with my friends...my used to be friends...but i've been learning that there's nothing you should regret when you decide to do somthing..even it is a bad thing...i ve been a fool all this while by trusting a wrong person....and been stabbed at my back by people who i used to trust the most...hahaha...

each day i kept complaining about my current hectic days without knowing how to thank GOD for letting me live until today...hmmm...when you have so many things inside ur head..then this is what happen...i dont know what exactly i want to write..heheheh...when ever i had another specific things to share..then i'll write again...daaa...

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

live healthily...love urself!!!!

the reason why i wrote this is because theres so many people around me fall sick lately....i felt sorry for em...(what else can u do or say neway??)including the late yasmin ahmad coma case, today is my third time listening to these 'coma' stuff...1st shocking case was of course the yasmin's case...then last midnight my friend called me telling me that her father now are warded...i m quite shocked because shes not really my close friend...but then she chose me to be her crying shoulder...i went to see her this morning just to calm her down...to say everythings gonna be ok...to keep strong...(the best thing i can think of to say to her just now....)i've informed some of other friends about her father...asked everybody to pray for the best...then this evening...one of my used to be a neighbour in Ampang called my house...yes..our mother are best friend...but not us...we are not even close..when i answered the phone...i heard a crying man over the phone...and suprisingly he knew my name and told me that his father was coma since this morning...again...i got shocked...and i know its too inappropriate to ask who's actually on the line...but i really have to ask...i felt sorry but i dont who he is...when he told me who he is...i got double shocked...(what??second bad news)and once again...the only best thing i can say is everythings gonna be ok...(actually it's his mom who asked him to call...just to inform my mom..)i informed my mom and from her expression i knew she's hardly believe what i told her...then i called my dad to tell about this uncle...and i give all the detail about where is the hospital, the ward & etc...
i wonder why all these things happen...yeah i knew its all about the qada' & qadar thing...but its all happening too fast..is it because of the way of living? the things that we ate maybe??or the way we handle the stress?? i dont know...but i do pray the best for everybody....to stay happy and healthy....its bad to know that people u knew got sick...i just cudnt find the right word to say to em when they told me the bad news...what i can just do is listen..be their crying shoulder and say 'insyaallah...everythings gonna be ok..."(although it seem impossible to me that things will turn out to be ok...)so when i say life is colorful..it is colorful...this is the part where i hate the color...live healthily friends...!!!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

h1n1

since the swine flu had infected lots of people around the world...the impact towards the community can clearly be seen...people started wearing mask..they wash their hand more frequently...schools are closing...universities are closing...they read a lot about how to avoid the disease...bla..bla..bla...for this past few days...my housemate and I are suffering bad cough caused by the "jerebu"(haze) (i guest)...and lots of people thought that we are actually suffering h1n1...hahaha...each time we cough...people will stare at us weirdly and i can see the worry'ness' in their eyes...neway...im not blaming them for their thought that we re actually suffering h1n1..because we did look like people with disease..hahaha....we went to the pusat kesihatan uitm early in the friday morning and found that theres a long queue of people waiting to see the doctors...the we decided to postponed our intention of meeting the doctor to the next day(since the q was too long)...oh ya...we are actually required to go to the site on friday at putrajaya...so to putrajaya we went...both of us were coughing badly and we realize that our cough had getting worsen...so during solat jumaat we went to klinik putrajaya(or watever they called it)...the nurse outside the klinik scan for our temperature and confirmed that we both were free from h1n1..hahahah....at last a confirmation from someone that can convince all my friends that we both are not suffering h1n1...hahhah...we went to see the doctor and got the prescription...told ya...it just a normal cough...although i lost my voice...it doesnt mean i m sick to death..hahaha..

with this kind of infection...people now became more aware about cleanliness, healthcare, and what they eat for life...hehehe...people wore mask whenever they need to be in crowd and they wash their hands more frequent...but sometimes awareness might lead to paranoia...hhaha...some of em just being so paranoid just by listening to someone coughing..hahaha...so dear friends...if you are suffering a really bad fever(demam panas), and you had the cough, the flu, or u flew to somewhere that already blacklisted with the h1n1..then you better be serious and make a further check up..if u just suffering a flu n cough like me....no need to be too worry...its haze in malaysia...drink lots of plain water, take supplement if u need any...then u'll stay healthy...peace..!!!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

tourrete syndrom

I have been watching this movie entitled “Front Of The Class” at HBO. The movie is about a man who suffers tourrete syndrome since he was a little kid. Im not saying that I m not the crying type while watching movies..i have to admit that I m the easy crying type especially when it comes to humanity issues. I just cant stand people who just treated other people badly when they actually were clearly stronger, healthier, smarter or wealthier. It just so unfair to those who are in need.
Okay..back to the movie…it was originally a book written by brad cohen himself (the one who suffer tourrette) it’s a based on true story book+movie…I’ve never read the book yet…but already watched the movie..tourrete is an inherited neuropsychiatric disorder with onset in childhood. I m not the tourrete specialist but I know that no one want this syndrom happen to any of his/her family. Cohen’s parents divorced during his early childhood. He barked and twitched constantly during his waking hour. His mom was compassionate but not his father. At first, the doctor told his mom that it was just a reaction or something like emotional reaction to his parents’ divorce.(personally, I’ve once seen this kind of situation where the child keep tic tac tic while sitting beside me…and I don’t know whether it was tourrete or the kid had just tried to annoy me..hehehe…) what made me really touched when watching this movie was the spirit of the mother. She kept telling her son that never let the tourrete win. The reason why she said that is because she wanted her son to believe that nothing can stop one’s dream. It really hard to grow up as one who suffers tourrete because the sound they made cant be controlled and its getting worst when they are nervous and afraid. The kids and even the adults kept laughing and make and awkwardly stare at him. He did tell his mom that what he need is just that to people to accept him. He had a wonderful mom, younger brother n friends who always understood him and supported him. He made himself open to any question that people might ask after they discover about the tourrete syndrome. It really touching when he said ‘it is okay to be different’, “the only thing I can never do is play hide n seek”…those are some of the stuff he said to his students in second grade…after all it really a good movie to me…the message was clear…I really touched and it really made me think again how important to appreciate all people around you….

Monday, June 22, 2009

have you watched this???

if you were born during the 80's...i bet you've watched this kind of series when you were young...hahha...i m kinda missing those series...
FLASHMAN

here another one..MASKMAN!!

and another...GABAN!!!!!

last but not least...SATRIA BAJA HITAM....the cutest hero...hahaha...i used to really really like him when i was still kid...


QD...!!!thanks for the 'sharing-maring'...i enjoyed it neway..heheh...(",)

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

urana exham





for my first blog, i want to share some of stuff i've read recently...not really recently...but quite recently....although my english is not yet reaching the level where malaysians will say 'cair bila bercakap'.. but i have to admit that when it comes to reading, i prefer english stuff...yes i admit it..i've been cynical towards the malay books...its not because they're not good..but they always had almost the same plot in every book...and you can always expect what is gonna happen next....the writer always wrote what you want to read..yeah i know writers should entertain the readers, but they have to surprise us...then it makes them a better writers... ok....i just want to share my opinion about these books...i have stop reading malay books since highschool...but lately my perspective about malay book had somehow changed.just after i read urana exham...i think its good, fresh,cool, interesting, complicated, and full of surprise...it had smooth storyline and never in my mind thought that a Malaysian would write something like this...u guys should read it... its an imagination of our future life...its kinda illogical here and there...but if you love stuffs like star wars or star trek or any kind of science fiction story..then you should read those books...the language is easy to be understood...yet not too straightforward..just nice...em...end of promotion...later...!!!

for the first time

i m still new in this blogging thing....and i dont have anything to share 'yet'...i'll come out with an issue later for us to share...so..wait for me!!! (",)