setiap yg terjadi ada message dariNya

okay..tukar la typical sangat dah setiap yg terjadi ada hikmahnya....

seringkali gagal melihat atau nampak hikmah yg mahu ditunjukkan kecuali selepas difikirkan dalam2 ataupon sudah terjadi dalam satu tempoh yg lama...

apa yang terjadi akhir-akhir ini memang betul-betul membuatkan diri ini tertampar...
bukan sikit sikit punya tampar..memang jatuh tersembam tertampar dek situasi ini...

tak pernah menyangka akan terjadi apa yang ditakuti...
tak pernah menyangka akan dengar apa yang ku harap tidak pernah terjadi...

takut kerana ujian yang tidak seberapa...terlupa bahawa nikmat Allah lebih banyak dari dugaan Nya...
takut terlupa setiap yang terjadi atas aturanNya jua...

*berdoa agar apa yg di kepala tidak dihamburkan... Ya Allah..tingkatkan kesabaran ku...
*berdoa agar lebih sedar kesilapan diri sendiri dari sibuk nampak kesilapan orang lain...nauzubillah...

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Please stay strong!!!!

I just couldn't imagine if it is happening to me...who's gonna take care of me?

I saw no one that I can count on...like seriously no one...

O Allah...keep me safe...make me strong...keep me close to you...and lead me to the right path...

Show me answer to all my questions...

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panic disorder

i am the kind of person who can easily get tense...and people around me usually thought that i am okay in the middle of the semester...the expression maybe???

when i am in that super tense condition...i refuse to listen to any advise..and any stupid advise like...'sabar weyh' can never fail to annoy me to the max...and listening to anyone babbling and nagging about stuff that i should and shouldn't do will make me feel like i rather die than listening to all those shit...

i am that loud girl in town...being spontaneous is my specialty...and sarcasm is always described by my close friend as my way of life...-___- ...duuhhhh...

despite of all that tough and fierce faces i showed towards everyone...i am fragile...i always don't know what to do when i got mad or upset about something...i sometimes cried when everyone is not crying...and not crying when everyone is crying as i am the steadiest among all of them...

being in this archi world, it was like we have been trained to think about our idea all the time...when we said 'i'll sleep on it'...we do sleep WITH it...we think in our dreams and sometimes shockingly woke up and sit straight holding our pen and tried to sketch or write again all the solution that we found in the dreams...

pathetic? yeah ..i know...

and i am now nervous counting days left before i  get back to launceston....

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrggghhhhhh...

pardon me.

i know that i am panic....but i am not sure what am i panicking about...grrrrr.....

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the worst part is when you forget what is the meaning of being blessed...

just like other normal human being....i can't stop myself envying others...how i wish i could be like him/her...how i wish i was born filthy rich...how i wish i could speak all the languages on earth (although the truth is...my Malay [which is my mother tongue] is just as bad as my English..T__T )

envying others can somehow leads you to a positive path...like you'll try harder to be better and improve yourself... but it could also happen the other way around where without realizing the fact that we forget disregard all the so-not-cool life we had...He had blessed us with so many other thing...

so...kurang-kurangkan la facebooking je memanjang...lepas tu dok baca newsfeed...lepas tu dok sibuk tgk video orang post...waaa...sedap la sore dia..eyh hensem nya boyfriend dia...eyh...girlfriend dia sangat jelita...aaa..nak anak comei camtu jugak...kulit dia flawless kau...waaa...banyaknye duit dia pi jalan2 sana sini...haaaa...waaa...dia skrg dah keje besar....

ape lagi reaction2 logic yg bakal kuar??lepas tu LUPA nak bersyukur dengan apa yg dah dikurniakan Allah kepada diri sendiri...

Astaghfirullahalazim...

berusaha menjadi lebih baik tak salah...yang salah ialah apabila kita buat-buat tak nampak nikmat yg Allah bagi dekat kita...lagi salah bila kita lupa nak bersyukur...

Nauzubillah..

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gemini i am

so lately...i've been temporarily obsess about the zodiac thingy....

*reminder : never believe those lines in the newspaper when they wrote about stuff that might happen and stuff you should and shouldn't do...
berdosa weyh!!!

im only going to talk about the character..

i never get really interested in knowing this zodiac stuff but finally got hooked up after reading one of my friend's tweet...*sigh..

reading about my own sign is like reading my own writing...and seriously..it's like reading my own thought pun ada jugak...

and sometimes..it's like listening to my friends talking about me....haha...haaaa...korang...now you know why i act such way...my sign explains everything...haha...

here some images i found thru net about geminis...adalah la yg macam tak betul sikit-sikit...tapi most of em are super right...hauhauhua....

that quickly bored part is just super true...*sigh

'saya adalah sangat tidak terkawal'

*tu belum kisah baca fadhilah kamsah nye character berdasar tarikh lahir...teringat kawan aku tanya aku...'eyh...ni ko tulis sendiri eyh??' sesungguhnya..aku pun terkejut biawak membacanya...sebijik kot dialog...*haih..

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